Today sucked.
I broke again.
I dont even know why. I didnt need it, I just did. And one was really bad, it wouldnt stop, I probly need a stitch or two but it'll be fine. It'll be fine..
Something different happened though, instead of the high I usually got I started trembling and couldnt catch my breath. that lasted a good twenty minutes or so. I still have the razors, god I still have them. and there are some here too, in the cabinet, I found boxcutters but I cant go look at them because then I'll do it again I'll do it again and I cant do that I cant do that because I have to go to psych tomorrow and its easy to lose control with bigger things and Im a little scared because the voices make me angry and when I get pissed off I do it harder, thats how the one wouldnt stop bleeding. the skin is still pulled apart. it hurts, if it still hurts tomorrow i'll be worried